I was praying today after reading a conference talk on humility. My heart and mind were torn. I have been struggling a lot recently to feel my own worth as a person, and being reminded of how everything I am or ever hope to be was given to me through the grace of Jesus Christ gave Satan the perfect opportunity to remind me that I am nothing, and will never amount to anything. I started crying as I prayed. I knew it was Satan. I have learned enough times how “The worth of souls is great in the sight of God.” to know that God saw me differently.  I prayed “Heavenly Father, please let me just see myself as Thou seest me for just one moment. I just want to understand how things truly are.” A thought came to me. “Think of your children.” I kind of ignored it, because they are all I ever think about, and I was looking for answers right then. The thought came again. “Think of your children.” I did. I thought of Fay and how sometimes she is a gem, and sometimes I don’t know what to do with her. I thought of Carter and how he loves balls and loves yelling “NO!” as long and loud as he can. I thought of Portia and how she really doesn’t do much, and yet is pure sweetness. I thought about how much I love them–with my whole being. They are infinitely important to me, and always will be, even if they never accomplish a single thing in their lives. I will love them forever. And all I really ever want from them is for them to love me and be happy.

That was my answer.